tremendous late update eh?

been busy here and there, got home from work, no strength to edit pics and update them here. but, i do upload them in my FB. :)

so here it is, my Hari Raya for 2010.

honestly, it was totally diff. with my mum's side at JB, not much ppl came there as u noe, transport main prob and of coz the traffic jam. wadever it is, i still enjoyed Hari Raya as much as always. Coz i noe, my family will always be there.

 i didnt get to meet the cousins from my mum's side. but i had lots of fun & laughter from my dad's side.

they're always funny. Especially my Cik Odah aka Makcik Melatah. A video of her melatah-ing was uploaded on FB. :P

 ouh, these kids areeee aweeee-to-the-someee! pandai nyah amik gambar.

 and of coz, outing with the Perserverance Yields Success punyer budak-budak. :) i love the self-time shots and the tak jadi jumping shots. heee.

and, budak-budak irritating berjalan rayaa.

 love's side, at JB. one bungalow, the other a condo. The condo one, syiok i tell you. Feels like getting a home at JB. nyehhh.



when it comes to hari raya, all i wished was to go back to my childhood years. not bcoz of the green packets, but i want back my carefree mind. Where the cousins meet up, playing together, thinking abt nothing else but to play.

do take note: I AM EXTREMELY BUSY FOR THE TIME BEING.

due to work, its back to square one. i'm alone here with Uncle Pasu. Alice got transferred to Ubi and the new girl was nowhere to be found. Argh. I'm getting used to all these kind of nonsense. I dun get it, why must you even got the cheek to volunteer yourself when you noe u stay in the west area and then in the end, taking up tons of MCs and then disappear out of sudden. OH WHY. i need an explanation on this.

i need a holiday like pls. or maybe a week off so i can spend my time at home, watching Korea dramas. Hehhhhh. Yes, i'm like addicted to them already. I even find one of my brother's fren look like a korean guy. Duh, because he's putih and got sepet eyes. Nyehh.

okay lah, see you next time. i need to finish up my never-ending work. blueh.

lucky.

a few years back, there was one so-called "fortune teller" came over to my workplace to sell his stuffs and all. But of coz, me and the colleagues were not interested at all. But this guy just stood there, looking at me. And i mean STARING.

I looked back at him and gave him the look of why-are-you-looking-at-me-like-tat. And suddenly he blurted out, 'YOU'RE ONE LUCKY GIRL'. I didnt ask further coz the way he said it, kinda freaked me out.
At that point of time, i couldn't find any possible reasons of why he said that i'm lucky. Due to reasons like, i didn't get the course that i want in poly, boyfriends and stuffs like that.

But to think back, for now, i have a great feeling that i am one lucky girl. and no, i don't believe in all the teller-teller thingy. But, i'm thankful to Allah for all that he has given me.

A great family,
Super supportive mum, always there for me.
Joker Dad, never fail to make all of us smile.
And of coz, kental brother. He will always "Kakak, kak, kak," me at home.
At times, i find his jokes are damn lame, but i still find it funny after looking at his face. HAHA.
And yeaa, he's gonna make us proud. :)

An awesome fiancé,
Nearly 10 months,
and me myself can't believe it that, we still haven't fight.
Oh wait. Its not that i want us to fight, but its really something diff in this relatnship of mine.
Coz, if i really wanna compare to the other bfs, just one word, sucky.
The thing is, i can't be angry at him. Whenever i'm starting to be angry, there he goes, making me smile from ear to ear again.
The way he make me calm down after feeling all the insecurities, i tell you, its awesome of how he can make me real calm.
And of coz, counting down to our big day. :)
Gosh, i miss him already even though we just met yesterday.

And of coz, my two adorable fatty and skinny,
they make my world even lovelier.

For me and Ariah, we both always wished that we're each other's boyfriends. Bcoz, if it's like that, things would be easier. No arguments, no dwelling onto pasts, no worrying if we can get pregnant if we sleep with each other. :P And also, we are both romantic okay. Ask her if you wouldn't believe meee. But things are already like that. We're cousins. I used to hate her when we were small. Leaving her alone while me and other cousin go to the playground. Oops. Okay shush, i can rant abt our childhood if i dun stop. :P

And aunty bella, seriously, she's my aunty. Hehh.
What i noe is, she will be there when i need her. Although at times she's busy with sch stuff and all, she will always be there. And i always find her recommendations of songs/movies/dramas are all good.

 Ishk, sayang korang smuer lah! :D

im sorry if i talk too much. but i just need to tell these people how important they are in my life.

ps: someone googled my name and ended up here eh? i wonder who you areee! hehh.
ps ps: RAYA NAK DEKAT OI!

meet-ups, ♥

22.08.10;

i made new friends. honestly, they are one bunch of GEREKKKK people.

plus, KECOH-RABLE tooo. :)

eleeeeehhhhh, ♥

syg u many-many. :)

and alsooooo! meeting up with my sec schmates!

 suker sukerrrrr sngt kalau jumper dorang.

i can laugh like nobody's business. hehh.

nana's bdaeee surprise.

i love it much when someone cry during their bdae.

they make me wanna cry too.

coz, i noe, they cry bcoz of happiness that they just can't explain with smiles.

:')

and ariah, i feel what u feel right now.

its totally the exact same thing.

InsyaAllah, the "ONE" will come right to you when its the right time.

and ur ONE here, is always here for you horr baby.

"Jgn luper kerete lembu awak, mentang-mentang dah ader Audi".

hehhhhh.

love, ur fatttty bom bom!

whenever i think of you, my heart sings a little love song.

make me smile on my worst days.

yess youuu! ♥

bye.hi.tata.hello.

The past is there for us to learn. For us to remember the mistakes that we’ve made, so that we won’t make those same mistakes again in the future. Don’t dwell on the past so much that you can’t move forward. Don’t let the past hurt you so much that you can’t enjoy the present, and look forward to the future. Remember, the past is a chapter in your life, and not the final fullstop.

- Life’s Little Wonders

YESS, come on nisaaaa.
Seriously, i hate it when everytime i've heard the stories, the mind starts to go haywire again. In fact, i love to hear the stories. I love to ask, but everytime my ears spare the stories and the mouth had to ask, THERE goes, the heart getting ripped off. Why oh why. I dun like my thoughts.

You can't expect them to be there for you 24hrs around the clock.
You can't expect them to always reply ur texts like immediately.
You can't expect them to comfort you with all the nice words everytime you're feeling down.
You can't expect them to be your expectations.

Maybe, your expectations are way too high.

My mondays are always ain't good.

uh-huh.

How's your Ramadhan so far? Hopefully its good for everyone. :)

Time flies reallie fast. Without knowing, it will be Hari Raya already ehh.

These Studio-Like shots were taken a few days before puasa. Nope, its not a Studio. But its Jacintha's house.

Backdrop: Black Cloth

Lighting: Natural Lighting / Built-in Flash

Make-Up: Ownself

Outfit: Ownself

And hell yes, we had damn lots of funnn!

That's the only pictures i wanna post here. Bcoz, some people just couldn't shut their damn bloody mouth when they see a normal-pakai-tudung-girl, opens up her hijab for a 'suka-suka' studio-like photoshoot. Well, HELLO, atleast i have decent poses, unlike yours, kissing from mouth to mouth. yuckssss BIG time.

Mate gue nak muntahhh laa tgk! Jgn ckp mate sayer jee, mate-mate lain yg sewaktu dgnnyer ponn conferm nak muntah. :P

We're planning more of these. Next one, i shall wear tuala on my head. Hmmmmph!

Oh anyways, Spore has been busy with YOG ehh lately? Dearest has been busy too. Its either we talk for awhile and he goes to sleep or we don't even get a chance to talk at all. Adoi, kerinduan menjelma laa kan. Hehh. But. i'm totally fine with it. Coz i noe, he's tired.

And yayy! Tmr's Sunday.

Sexcited.

"Some people say you only fall in love once, but every time I hear your voice I fall in love all over again."

thank you.

i noe, thank you is just not enough. :)

♥

coz, you're amazing.

just the way you are.

♥

choices

have u ever sit down and think,

think whether the choices that you've made in ur life are the right ones?

choosing ur life partner,

choosing ur career path,

choosing every other BIG things in your life.

becoz, the choices that u've made will determine your future. will determine whether u will be happy or not.

i've ever thought,

what if i continued studying by choosing nurse as my career?

what will happen to me?

what if, i continued being with the previous guys which i will not meet my fiance?

what will happen to me right now?

i wonder what will i be doing right now.

but whatever it is, someone ever told me,

Don't regret in whatever u've choosen.

Live life with no regrets. :)

geeeee. i got to many to think of. too much what-IFs pollution inside my head.

i neeed to learn the guitar like REAL badd pls?

need you now, seriously.

dream, a little.

have u all watched Despicable ME?

if not, PLS DO WATCH.

its irritatingly FUNNAY & UBER CUTE-NESSS!

i've been having weird dreams these few days.

as weird as:

I dreamt that my stomach was being cut into half, maybe to take out a baby. But i can't remember i was being pregnant in that dream. Okay, so cut into half rite? And need to close back correct?

But, the most weirdest thing is, i got cut on the stomach but someone sew it on my knees. I was like, WTH?

AND that someone is, my Mum. =.=!

my goodness. How weirder can my dream get?

And another dream was, it felt so real that i woke up at 2am in the morning, feeling as if there's a deep hole in my heart. Like, i was really scared its going to happen. :(

which caused the insecurities feelings that i've been feeling after the dream.

seriously, i hate insecurities. they are like BIG Bugs which irritates my mind. Bugs buzzing, telling me unnecessary thoughts, which will make me think and think like one idiot. boo-hoo.

but nah, i got to talk to dearest abt that. and he reallie knows how to dump all those BIG BUGS away.

:))

dreams are just images of the brain playing with ur mind.

i love you like that. ;)

im going to have my own house like soon.

not thaaaaat soon, but in a few years time.

when i asked people how's their feeling when they got their own house;

most of them said, EXCITED.

for me, there's some excitement.

but, im scared.

scared if everything can work out well or not.

the renovations and stuff, the staying independently without my mum being there.

without hearing her nagging asking me to do this and that.

oh goshh,

i need to prepare from now. :/

and i've been watching dearest play soccer for 2 sundays in a row.

and i might be watching him again playing tmr. :D

its funn watching them play.

coz, too many jokers and you just can't stop laughing. hehh.

and woooots.

that's my "MAN".

and nopes, this 2 pics wasn't taken by my camera.

i kinda stolee it from love's FB.

a fren of them took it with SUPERB lens.

you know, the lens that photographers use for taking soccer matches.

yes, the 1k and above lenses.

*faint*

 

and i've got myself an iphoneeee. :)

iphone & itouch.

sometimes, i can get confused of which one to use.

hehhh.

i'm all black&white inside,

you, colour them up.

:)

Oh Yunaaa! :)

YES YES, YUNAAA! :D

i was auw-ed when i saw her like infront of my own eyes. like really, literally infront of mee.

like, OMGEZEERS!

before she made an appearance, my heart was seriously beating damn loudly.

i told ariah,

its like im meeting my first love. nyehhh.

ok, i shall shuddup.

when she sang live, i thought i was hearing it from my earphone.

coz, its really, really exactly the same.

i went there with my other 2 bobanas.

there were 3 other singers. Tengku Aidil, Syera & Myo. 3 of them are as aweeesomee too! And i didnt noe Syera does exists. Ooops. But her voice is damn beautiful too. And she's from Singapore. Oh my, i'm such a proud Singaporean. Hehh.

And Yuna, till we meet again.
XOXO.

the birthdays.

JUNE / JULY.

i just realised, mostly the ppl around me have their bdaes in either June/July. hehh.

1st. Aidil's Bdae Surprise

Made a surprise without dearest as he was on a holiday in KL.

Surprised this kental at Nabins.

Best part of the day: Playing truth or dare. syiokkkness.

2. Bella's 18th!

Blindfolded her from her house ALLLL the way from her house to Minds Cafe at Clarke Quay.

hehhhh. belo-ness.

One of her gifts was a g-string. ooops.

Best part of the day: The way she screaaamed when she found YUNA's tix in her prezzie box. :D

3. The combined Bdae Babies.

Love's family chalet at Aloha.

Musical Chairs.

Babiesss! Lots of themm!

And swimming. Err.

Best part of the day: Wearing the same color.

Dunnoe why, but i love to see couples wearing the same color.

Yuhuu-ness.

blueh.

HI.

i feel bad everytime i abandon this blog of mine. but abandon shouldn't be the right word. nyehh.

just no time/no mood to update. like seriously, as usual, i've got tons of things to update here.

things happening around me right now, are just not the right things,

not the usual things that are SUPPOSEDLY, supposed to be happening.

but who said, whatever we've planned will turn out to be exactly what we've planned?

NOBODY.

ALLAH maha kuase, He has written how our life will turn out to be even before we were born.

so, accept life in whatever shape it will be aite?

just be thankful.

and again i repeat, THANKFUL.

ya Allah.

dugaan demi dugaan; in this little place called life.

I seriously don't get it when someone has done something wrong and PROUDLY said that she is not scared if anyone knows about it. And at last, she wouldn't even want to admit it. Honestly, this is not the first time sweetheart. This is the efffffffingggg 2nd time. Come one, how old are you? We're nearly the same age but only separated by a few months. You're just lucky that i didnt print out what you've posted in your blog. And u're damn lucky that i didn't even show it to the person that you've mentioned in that post.

i hate the fact when my anger broke into tears when i can't hold my anger anymore. and i hate the fact too, when my words got vanished when i'm too angry.

SO, APER KAU BUAT PAT SINI? ASAL NAK KEPO-KEPO BLOG ORG? KAU BABI EH? KER, PENGECOT PUNYER BABI. DAH BLOCK-BLOCK ORG, LEPAS TU, NAK SEBOK BACE BLOG ORG. BODOH BODOH.

kann nur anisah dah maki. not the usual me. that's not nur anisah.

its not that i don't want to talk face-to-face to them. they just don't want. coz, they merely said, MALAS NAK LAYAN. whatttt a reasssonn. tskk.

these ppl are just plain stoopid. and ppl who are not meant to terase, plsssss dun terase cann? get a freaking life. :)


okay wadever, lets move on with life with a smileeee okay? i won't let these kind of childish things affect my greaaat life.

and so, love got BISUL.

i thought it wasn't that serious until i accompanied him to a nearby clinic and the doctor referred him to NUH. and then, he was asked to do an operation the very next day. and i thought, it was like a normal cut-off-the-thing-and-can-go-home kind of thing. BUT NO. he had to stay inside the Day Surgery ward. so, i took half day and went to visit him. watch him sleep, gave him drinks whenever he's thirsty, massage his head coz he was having terrible headache. an experience i will never forget. :)

i dunnoe why, but i just love visiting the hospitals. especially for my love ones. i love taking care of them, be with them by their side. its really great feeling. :) oh, maybe that's why i got Nurse for my poly application last time. but nahh, i can cuci pantat my love ones but not the ahpeks. hehhh. geli akuuu.

"you'll just be my nurse then"

- swtheart.

family.

when the word family comes across my mind,
i will picture a family that consists of a man and a lady, with two beautiful children,
running, smiling, catching each other, tickling each other. and of coz, the sound of laughters; sincere laughters to be exact.

but the thought of seeing families tearing apart, going hay-wire here and there will just break my heart. where are the responsibilities? the need to take care of the kids. the need to give them the food and care that they need.

and also, families who stay under ONE roof, but talk behind each other's back about the things they are unhappy about. what's the use of talking when you're just hurting ur own feelings inside?

im scared.
im going to start a family soon. i mean, not THAT soon. insyaAllah if God gives me the rezeki. :)
becoming a mom, educating my children, understanding them.
will i be a good mom? will i have the respect that i should get? bcause, you know, kids nowadays are damn rude.

am i ready for all that?

whenever i say that i'm scared to the fiance, he will say;

"jgn takot syg, kalau you takot, lagiiiii laa i takot"

=.=!

and he will say:

"most importantly, understand each other. without that, it will be hard."

because he knows that his working shift and all that might affect our relationship.

gosh, i miss him already. and its not even a day.


all that i can do is, pray for the best.

LIMA.

TOP CURRENT FACTS.

#1

sweechrt will be away for 3 effings days to KL. like wad? 3 days only mahh.

i noeee. iduncare. im going hug this teddy tightly while u're away. hehh.

#2

i want more coloured pens pls?

and dun reallie like my organiser for this year.

to small to write anithing and to decorate like alot of things.

blueh.

#3

i would really love to say this to those who reallyyy succccck over idiot stuffs.

hell yeah.

#4

since im as fat as a FISHBALL & MEATBALL,

i've started back gym-ing like, alone.

weird at first but, i feel kinda cool after tat. nyehehe.

#5

my pontehhhs, i miss you both like MAD COW DISEASE.

pleaseeee meeet up this friday okay? pls pls pls.

to be grateful;

syukur alhamdullilah;